Where to go from here

Life has often thrown me for a loop and sometimes I've made some wrong choices that have thrown me for a loop. This last year has been pretty rough and I have gone from the lowest of lows, for me, and trying to pick myself back up to feeling like thing's are starting to work out only to have something else thrown at me. I moved down to Utah for a few reasons, one I got a job, two I wanted a new start and three I felt like this is where the Lord wanted me to be. I have often felt like I have lost so much because of some choices I've made and have no where to turn and no one to talk to. That feeling along with loneliness is really hard to deal with. Some days I can handle it and then there's other day that I have no clue how I'm going to get through it. I have been fighting satan so hard and wish that thing's would get a little better so it was bearable. I often think, why does everything happen all at once? Sometimes I think that I'm going through this to help me be able to handle something much worse and harder that will be down the road. I really wish that I had someone to talk to but have felt like no one cares or doesn't understand or I just don't know how to put my feelings into words. I try to stay positive and understand but sometimes it gets hard. I know that prayer works but I'm not hearing, understanding or feeling comfort no matter how much or hard I pray and then I start feeling frustrated. I don't know why but holidays always seem to be the hardest time for me and I feel even more lonely more often then other times. I started reading the Doctrine and Covenants a couple of weeks ago and I have been reading, Ask and ye shall receive, over and over. I have been pleading a lot for a couple of things, I wonder what I'm doing wrong with my prayers. I know what people will tell me and the advise they'd give but that hasn't helped me understand or feel better. I feel like anytime I express how I feel I get negative feedback and get told basically that I need to stop feeling that way, change things or stop feeling sorry for myself. Then I feel like I'm awful and shouldn't feel the way I do. The feelings don't go away and then I'm back at square one but don't dare talk about how I feel for fear or being told the same thing. I don't like feeling this way and wish I knew how to handle it better but I haven't figured it out yet. Other then dealing with it and pretending that I'm doing great and keep putting one foot in front of the other I don't know what more to do.
 With the feeling lonely and wanting to be in a relationship and get married, sometimes I feel like I'm being teased. There have been some guys that I've talked to and wanted to get to know better but for some reason they all seem to disappear or they become super weird and creepy. I feel like the only guys that want to talk to me are ones that are only after one thing. When I don't give in they either stop talking to me or make me feel guilty because I'm not being nice. What gives? I have a really hard time trusting people and what they say because I've been lied to one to many times. It's not keeping me from getting to know someone but when the same thing happens over and over I wonder why I even try. If I could get over the feeling lonely part I could deal with being single but that loneliness hasn't gone away, in fact it's gotten worse, not what I want to have happen. I feel like I'm stuck and I don't know how to get unstuck or where to go from here. I'll keep doing what I'm doing and hope that things will start getting better and I will feel a little more cared about and that I'm not always doing thing's wrong. But until then I will keep praying and hoping.