And so it continues............

I'm am not sure what I am suppose to learn with all these trails I'm going through but I'm getting to the point that I'm not sure how much more I can really take. I make decisions and start to move forward only to feel like its not right. So then what? I have been trying now for almost 2 years to move. First it was to Utah and then it was to Arizona and now it's back to Utah but every time I try to make an effort to make it happen things don't work out and I feel like I don't know what I'm to do. Why do I need to stay here in Idaho when there is not dating opportunities here for me? I meet guys and they seem nice at first and then once they've talked to me for a little they either stop talking to me or talking to me inappropriately and show their true colors. So where are all the good men people tell me that are out there? Where do I need to go to meet them? What the heck am I suppose to do? I am really trying to do what's right, live the gospel, turn my life around and be better, except others for who they are and be more Christ-like and what happens for trying to do and live right? I struggle not just in one part of my life but it seems like in everything and lately it's been more then one thing at once! I guess Heavenly Father think that I can take it because thing's just keep happening and piling up on me. Just for once I'd like something to go smoothly and to know that that is the right thing to do instead of wondering because nothing is falling into place and seeming to work out. I've been trying to stay positive and have trust in Heavenly Father but sense Saturday thing's have just come crumbing down all at once in every aspect and I just lost it and had a huge breakdown yesterday. I'm not sure what I'm suppose to do anymore or where I'm suppose to be at but I know that I have to keep moving forward in doing the right thing and hope that thing's will be better soon or that I will see some hope of light at the end of the tunnel. Enduring to the end right? I hope and pray that I will have some form of understanding soon and not feel so lost and alone anymore.