It got to me! Too big of a load! Last Friday I woke up feeling sick. It wasn't flu sick it was from nerves and being so overwhelmed. In my Med Term class I was talking to one of the other students and I told her that I felt like I had to spend all my time focusing on my anatomy class and my other classes were on the back burner. I did the homework but that was it. I have been putting things off that needed to be done! I really wanted to drop my A&P class. The more I thought about it the better I was feeling! Because conference was coming up I decided that I was going to do what I have been told to do with conference. Listen to conference with the question in mind and praying to receive an answer. So that's what I did. I told Heavenly Father what I was thinking about, why I wanted to drop the class and what I would do with that extra time I would have. I asked to help me listen to conference that I might receive my answer. Saturday I was babysitting and didn't really know how much I was going to get out of it because how much attention Lincoln wants from me and also taking care of Harrison. I also asked Heavenly Father to help Lincoln to be good so I can watch conference. Heavenly Father answered both of my prayers that day! Lincoln was so good. He sat right next to me and read his own books! Not for the whole time but he wasn't whinny or needing my attention while I was watching conference. It was the Saturday afternoon session that I got my answer. It was Elder Ian S. Ardern's talk that hit me the most and answered my question I felt. He talked about managing out time and doing the better thing's. Because I'm not going to go into surgical tech or even the medical field for that matter I felt like taking A&P was not managing my time well or doing what matter's most. I really wish they had the talk up online so I could re-read it but they don't, I'll just have to wait. So this morning I went into the office at the school and talk to them to see what my options are. I was able to drop the class but I had to fill out some papers because the dropping the class and getting the grade you have in the class instead of failing the class had already come and gone. 1 of 3 thing's will happen. 1-they will approve me to have the grade I have in the class on my transcript and be able to get the refund (not that I have to have it but it would be helpful) 2-they wont approve it and I'll get a W on my transcript but not have to pay back the money for the class or 3- not get approved and have to pay back the money with a W on my transcript. Either way it goes I'm fine with because I don't have to go to A&P anymore! YAY! I wouldn't be put out if I had to pay it back because I would just use the money that I got from my grant. If I didn't have to pay but got a W I'm totally cool with that but if I was able to have my grade on it and get the money that would be the best. It would help me in so many different was and be a big blessing! However it turns out I'll be happy just cause I'm not taking that class any more!
Both sessions on Saturday were amazing and I felt like Heavenly Father was telling me thru the leaders of the church that what I'm doing by going to a mission is right and I am right where I need to be! This had been the first conference that I went into conference with wanting an answer and getting it and feeling like they were speaking just to me! I know not everything is going to be peachy and easy but I do know that as long as I am where I'm suppose to be and doing what I'm suppose to be doing Heavenly Father is going to bless me and help me get thru the hard times! With Heavenly Father all things are possible! Because I dropped my A&P class I'll have so much more time to do better thing's with my time! I plan on going to the temple hopefully twice a month, Studying the scriptures, reading good books that I've gotten and preparing for a mission. I want to do what Heavenly Father wants me to do and be the best at it!
