I cannot believe that I'm down to counting days! 27 days to go and I'll be going into the MTC!!!!! I am so excited but kind of nervise, only because it's something new that I've never done before and a huge change in my life! I feel like I have so much to do but don't really know what to do! I have to stop putting it off and get with the program! I don't want to be packing and cleaning the whole time my sister and her kids are here! Not only do I have thing's to do but I'm dealing with Satan working on my weaknesses and trying to get me down! Before I got my mission call I was told that the last month is going to be the hardest. Not only cause I'm wanting to leave but because Satan is going to be working harder on me! When I heard that I thought, "Oh I'm not going to let him get me down and nothing "really" hard is going to happen!" Oh my gosh was I ever WRONG!!!!! He has been working on my emotions of feeling bad (really bad) for my mood swings and thing's I say. The hardest thing to work through has been just within the last couple of days! I had a friend, that knows my weaknesses, turn nasty on me and use those weaknesses against me! She knows me so well that it kinda scares me! She knows too much about me that she's using every little thing against me and Satan is playing with those emotions and telling me that it's my fault and I should of known better. I will admit that I have let her walk all over me because I HATE confrontation so I just let thing's go instead of standing my ground! Through this thing I wanted to get back at her for all she's done to me that I allowed her to do! I'm not going to go into details of what happened. After many prayers, tears and not knowing what to do my BFF called me and we were talking about it and she said something that I hope I will always remember when someone does something wrong to me or something wrong happens. She asked me if I ever thought about "what Christ would do if He were in this situation?" When she said that, I knew what I was suppose to do! Even though what happened to me was very wrong and not fair I knew I had to do what Christ would do! I have to turn it over to Heavenly Father, let it go, forgive and learn to love her as Christ would! I have also been trying to figure out what I'm to learn from this, how it can help me grow and become a better person! A few people have told me that Satan is doing all he can to discourage me so I wont be the best missionary I can become! He know what I am capable of doing and he "does not" want me to do it! What I do know is through the help of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ I can get through whatever is thrown in my way and accomplish anything! Satan may throw thing's in my way but he CANNOT keep me from going and becoming what Heavenly Father knows I can become and doing what I need to do because I have strength from Heavenly Father to do it! Once next week is over this will hopefully be over for good and I can focus on what's most important in my life right now!
Thursday, April 5, 2012
27 DAYS!!!!!
I cannot believe that I'm down to counting days! 27 days to go and I'll be going into the MTC!!!!! I am so excited but kind of nervise, only because it's something new that I've never done before and a huge change in my life! I feel like I have so much to do but don't really know what to do! I have to stop putting it off and get with the program! I don't want to be packing and cleaning the whole time my sister and her kids are here! Not only do I have thing's to do but I'm dealing with Satan working on my weaknesses and trying to get me down! Before I got my mission call I was told that the last month is going to be the hardest. Not only cause I'm wanting to leave but because Satan is going to be working harder on me! When I heard that I thought, "Oh I'm not going to let him get me down and nothing "really" hard is going to happen!" Oh my gosh was I ever WRONG!!!!! He has been working on my emotions of feeling bad (really bad) for my mood swings and thing's I say. The hardest thing to work through has been just within the last couple of days! I had a friend, that knows my weaknesses, turn nasty on me and use those weaknesses against me! She knows me so well that it kinda scares me! She knows too much about me that she's using every little thing against me and Satan is playing with those emotions and telling me that it's my fault and I should of known better. I will admit that I have let her walk all over me because I HATE confrontation so I just let thing's go instead of standing my ground! Through this thing I wanted to get back at her for all she's done to me that I allowed her to do! I'm not going to go into details of what happened. After many prayers, tears and not knowing what to do my BFF called me and we were talking about it and she said something that I hope I will always remember when someone does something wrong to me or something wrong happens. She asked me if I ever thought about "what Christ would do if He were in this situation?" When she said that, I knew what I was suppose to do! Even though what happened to me was very wrong and not fair I knew I had to do what Christ would do! I have to turn it over to Heavenly Father, let it go, forgive and learn to love her as Christ would! I have also been trying to figure out what I'm to learn from this, how it can help me grow and become a better person! A few people have told me that Satan is doing all he can to discourage me so I wont be the best missionary I can become! He know what I am capable of doing and he "does not" want me to do it! What I do know is through the help of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ I can get through whatever is thrown in my way and accomplish anything! Satan may throw thing's in my way but he CANNOT keep me from going and becoming what Heavenly Father knows I can become and doing what I need to do because I have strength from Heavenly Father to do it! Once next week is over this will hopefully be over for good and I can focus on what's most important in my life right now!
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