Why do we make thing's harder then we should?

I'm half way thru my 2nd week of school and I am starting to feel very overwhelmed! Last night was a really hard night! Not understanding anything in my Human A&P class I found out that I had 3 homework assignments and 2 quizzes to do before 10:30 last night! I had 4 hours to do them all! I did the quizzes first and didn't do so well I'm sure and the homework wasn't any better! I have never done well with understanding from just reading and not having anything explained to where I can understand! There is a lot of reading and the first couple of chapters are thing's I don't understand and have never really understood! So I'm sure that taking tests are going to be harder! Last night and this morning I was ready to drop the class! After class I felt like I needed to give it more time! Although I have met someone in class that said she would help me if I needed it and I will probably take her up on that, it still is very overwhelming. I try to keep telling myself that all I can do is my best and if I fail then at lest I did my best and tried to figure it out! I'm really liking my math class (who would of known) weird cause I've NEVER liked math at all! I'm sure once we get farther into it it's going to get more challenging but I have someone to help me and I have a really good teacher! I don't so much about my medical terminology class cause I've only gone once. It's more memorizing and learning to say the medical terms right! That's where I have a hard time cause I've never been good at pronunciation but it goes back to I have to try and do my best cause that's all I can do!
 Today in Human A&P lab we dissected a rat today. That was kinda gross which make me think what am I doing going into a field that I have to be in surgery! I gagged a couple of times. The smell was horrible so I was trying to just breath thru my mouth but that didn't work the whole time! Although it was interesting to see the insides it was hard to touch it and not smell it! While I was holding it while the other girl was cutting I think I broke it's leg (not that it really matter cause it's dead but I thought I'd throw it in), one of the girls heard it and freaked out from the sound. I kinda laughed that I did it. I really wish that I would learn to stop freaking out and just know that all I can do is my best so I can go full force at things and not worry about a week, month, 6 months or even a year from now! I need to work on the here and now!

Tomorrow's the day!!!

I am starting on a new chapter in my life, going back to school. Thursday I was feeling very uneasy and scared most of the day. I knew it had to do with school starting just around the corner because I couldn't stop thinking about it! I have no clue what I am doing or how thing's will go but I do know, and I have to keep reminding myself of this, that it's what I'm suppose to be doing! Other then having my books, paper and a pen I don't know what I need. It's amazing how Heavenly Father works! Thursday night when I knelt down to say my prayers I asked for peace and comfort and if this is what I'm suppose to be doing to calm my nerves and help me through this, cause I know that I can't do this on my own! I have stopped freaking out about it and having those feelings! I still am nervous but I don't have that uneasy feeling any more! Friday morning I went and found all of my classes and I think that helped with the uneasy feeling! With hard work and the help of Heavenly Father I can do this and become better!

School!

I'm starting to get really nervous because school is right around the corner, meaning 3 weeks! Sometimes I think, "What did I get myself into?" But I have to stop and tell myself that it's going to be good for me and I feel like it's the direction where I'm suppose to go! I still have to get my books and pay my tuition! I really hope that I don't get so nervous that I make myself sick and stop eating! I pray that Heavenly Father will help me have confidence in myself that I can do this and whatever else comes my way!
 Because I'm starting school I made the decision to leave the family ward and start going to the singles ward! It was really hard telling the Young Women that I was leaving! We have had such a good time and made so many good memories! But I feel like this is what I need to do so I'm not so stressed out with school, work, babysitting and 2 callings in church at 2 different wards! Thank goodness for facebook that I can keep up with most of the girls and what's going on! I was told that when they have some fun activity that they think I might like they'll invite me! I hope that I'll enjoy going to the singles ward and make some new friends!